Work has been in flux lately, which is both good and bad. Bad, because I feel like I'm driving my boyfriend crazy being home all the time, and because I could use some more billable hours. Good because I've been tearing through really good books, enjoying some TV, and writing a lot more.
And particularly, for the writing, something switched for me in the past week or so. Maybe it was just because I had all the time in the world in which to do it, but I was reminded how much I enjoy it. I have a lot of interests, so at any given time, when one interest is taking up more excitement and energy, the others drop. It's been easy to say that writing isn't as important as it used to be, or writing just isn't my focus right now. And I do want to focus on other things, too (all the things, in fact).
But the truth is that I love having a thought, pounding out some bullet points to come back to later, then realizing I can't let the idea drop and I need to write it out fully right now. I love coming back to a list of ideas I tapped out on my phone before bed so I wouldn't forget them, and realizing that some of them really are worth diving into. I love the feeling of drafting out an essay. I don't love the coming back to edit part, but I do really enjoy the end of that process, seeing the original idea take on a structure and flow.
So with all the extra time in the world, I realized I want to come back to writing. Great, that's about as easy as it gets. This post is starting to lean toward a New Year's resolution ending: I will write every day in 2017. I will post something here at least 3 times a week. I never make New Year's resolutions, and the habits I've actually managed to establish and maintain in my life have always sprung from a much deeper need and motivation than the start of a calendar year.
I'm not making a resolution here. But I am (regardless of the fact that it's January) trying to establish a habit—because I enjoy it, because it helps me organize thoughts, because it makes sense to me when so much of the world doesn't, because it's fun. No matter what's going on in my life, whether I'm currently more focused on career or acting or writing or reading or political engagement or anything else, I'm going to just keep writing.